Ass Backwards

Submission and the Fear of God. These concepts have become so ugly and misunderstood in church culture. I just want to bonk people on the head with a 2x4 at their myopia, until I realize their belief system is from lack of revelation in church leadership and in themselves.
As soon as we get saved, the next thing we hear is, "What is God's will for your life?" Ok, maybe it's not the first thing, but it follows soon enough. If you are in God's will, hoorah! And if you aren't, be prepared for lightning and/or misery.

So what is God's will? How do we define that? Is it your calling? Your purpose? God's desires for your life? Ok, let's say it is His desire for your life. So what does He desire?
We all know He desires holiness. Good behavior. Be like Jesus, right? Oh, and there's the Great Commission. Go make disciples of all nations. Find your ministry.

I'm sorry, but this is so ass backwards. I look at Jesus, and I really don't see His ministry as the forefront of his life. It's what is written about most, because the outward is usually the only way we relate and learn from. But how did Jesus spend His time? What was He doing most?

He spent hours with His Dad. They were one. He said He didn't do anything unless His Father told Him to. That you could look at Him and see His Father. Then, He spent the majority of the time left with His disciples. He ate, slept and joked with them. He inspired them. He confronted them. He gave them new names, new purpose.
Ministry took third place. It was out of the first two that Jesus drew from and gave out of. It didn't define him.

Think about all the things Mary (Martha's sister) could have done. She could have done some feet washing. Setting the table. Bringing Jesus a drink. Helping her sister.

I think Jesus' will for both Mary and Martha was just that they spend time with them. Undoubtedly the meal wasn't a big deal to Jesus, but then storms weren't either. He just created wine out of water, an army's worth of food out of a lunchbox, and a still night out of a hurricane. There is one thing He can't do though. Create relationship when He's the only one that shows up.

I got tired of worrying about what God's will for my life was a long time ago. Tired of 'submitting' to whatever 'calling' I was supposed to seek and do. Fatigue and depression will do that really quick; it takes away all the get up and go. It was like Jesus playing Jenga with my head and my heart. I wonder what would happen if we didnt' have things that made us stop. We would do it all. We'd build another tower to the stars.

It's really easy to be in His will. Just stop. Turn your heart towards His voice, and stop doing. Stop performing. Stop 'submitting'. Because wherever you are, He is. The ultimate place of safety is nestled close to His heart, hidden under His wings.